Everything Sucks

Its almost a month I came back to u ...........I learned a lesson that whosesoever in life is there wether a well wisher or a follower or a admier no one will ........ever appreciate you .......one has to make himself or herself understand ...........then only one can be content ......I m happy ..........I know life is full of tension .........best things is t o overcome the tension and .......try to adpt .........the changes around us ..................I dont knw when god has written marriage for me ................the way I m waiting for him ..............I m sure he must be waiting for me as well ............please send him God ...........please Bless me
I want to get married .............I want to live happily ...........I know one can never wait to be happy ............I want to be happy at this movement .

Wishlist is endless .................

These days I have stopped dreaming ............I dont dream about marriage .........I guess my thought process has jammed ...........I have encountered so many expreience in this life ...........that I dont expect to be good ........I feel that the umpteen no of fraud n cheating done by dozen of people .............It started when I was in my adulthood ...........since that  time ........I have grown with expreience .........I guess never in my life I will feel content .............I dont know ...........Why the male react in so indifferent way ........I really dont knw who will be the lucikest man on this earth who will marry me ..........
God do some thing why I cant get married ...........why every body on this earth has a life partener all my school mates are either enaged or married ............
I dont knw why I m writing .........as back of mind I will feel content and happy .........
When one of my cousin got married before that I use to thing that I will never get chance to be happy of to get married ...........then I thought if such dump girl can get married ........than I m  more smart than her .......
But all my hope are like a dry sea .............I dont have any positive sign of being happy and cheerful ..........I will not smile from now on .

People Changes, Circusmatances Changes

I don't remember the exact date when it started ........but we started exchanging sms ....I always use to update myself  to him .....he was so curious about me and gradually the story started .... we use to exchange 100 sms in a day .........at times it was 140 , 150 ............
He wanted to have elder in his life ...He was all alone ........His parents were not supportive as he use to say ........Prior when we started talking ........he got influence with me .......Later  the flow of appreciation came from his side ........My eyes are most  addictive n beautiful ......He use to dislike his parents .........

I made all my efforts to give him less headache ........He was suffering from migraine .........I always advice him as elder in his life, and as his well wisher ........I always wanted him to be happy ..........I dont knw what misunderstanding happened and  we are not in touch .........being his elder sister in his life ...........I miss him .......I miss you Kiddo ......I will miss you always . I love you a lot

Unprectiable

I love to be occupied ..........At time I miss my better half ...........I do feel some times parents don't like daughter to stay at their home ..........I do feel that I should take a PG accommodation
I dont enjoy talking to them ........that thought that they are getting older day by day .........makes me chicken shit

March 2011

Every person in the world presume to innocent until its confirmed...........I m aging and learning more n more with loads of experience ........I really dont know ........what has be destined for me .......I dont know what God has decided for me ............what ever changed I had in last few month were okay I m very happy working in new organization ........but people are pretentious ..........still learning ........I wish to be in .


I am coping with the changes and enjoying life as its coming ...........I think everything happen for a reason ........when I started this blog I was so much excited about the fact of getting married ...........But I dont feel like doing one .............I do have physical needs .....I feel like making out with my co worker ........I found some of them very attractive ..............Even My boss makes me crazy .........but again things should be in box when it comes to corporate .......don't think outside the box ...........

@2011

It;s been quite long I wrote ......
The most demotivating factor is no body follows me .......so I don't feel like blogging ....
Its Feb 2011....I started my blog last year ..........I shared all my experiences ........and persons who came in my life

I m happy to be single ...........I m changed with span of time ...now I don't want to get married ........I want to live life as per my own terms and conditions.....I  m free soul...........enjoy every moment of life .......

End of Sep ....Only 3 more month of 2010 :)

Today is the last day of Sep 2010 ........I hope in coming next three months .... things will be different

I swear to God life is really complicated and to get a life partner one has to struggle a lot .......The delhi guy which I mentioned was a divorcee and I was quite shattered when I came to know this fact ........he hided things initially .....but it was good on his part atleast he told us ........the best part was that our parents were not involve in that ...

Indian society says that its quite risky to  marry a divorcee ............and personally I do feel ......If I think about it All things in his life will be for second time and in my life it will be 1st time ........
I wont be comfortable for that :)