lesiure time

I really want to enjoy this time .........I don't have any worries ........no responsibilities .....no adjustments ......but still I m really sad and unhappy .........I do have lot of disagreements with my family members ...........

I don't want to be good to every one .......I really can't .....there is no one in my life ......

@ 27@ Nov 2010

Hey .......Its 27 rd Nov........I have no idea what is future is holding for me .....I am sad ....prior people were commenting on my back for my marriage ........and Now my family members do the same .......


My mother feels that no one will marry me ........I do feel that god has made the someone for me ...and he will come at  right moment .............I did almost every rituals , every prayer till the time .....I was not shocked .........but when my friend got married ........I was shattered .........as she was on  the seventh world .........and I was struggling in core crust ........

JULY2010

Till now  ..........it just experience which are making me strong to fight against things happening around me .
I really don't know where I will end this year ............Even I don't know I will be single or married ..........I really don't want to get married with my parents choice ............I want someone ..........who can understand me ........
I always wonder why I come across diff people  ...........recently I came across a guy .........He is an Engineer working in reputed company .............initally our talks were gud ...........later we both ended up with dirty talks and pleasurable things .........I know the reality that I am wasting time with him ..........there is no future ........although my heart says ..........We can get married ..........but he never initiates any thing .........Many time I was quite direct with him ...........but he himself was quite baffled .......

I want to say Thank You

I am very much positive thinker and I want to thank god for giving me a great life .........and a very good family .......although some blanks are missing but I know that God will take care of it ..........As he has taken always



Thank you  God for a wonderful content life and for keeping us gud and healthy be with us always ..........and prover your presence always :)

7more days to go .......

After 7 days ..........I will hve exact   6 month remaining for 2012 .........this year will also pass by .I don't find any predictability to get my better half in this year ...........As those who are getting married in  month of DEC or Oct  , they are already engaged  ................and I m still single .

Ppl around me tell in front of me that this is born 1983  ppl are buzurg (aged )
The reason for coming to you was that I felt lonely today
I all alone .......no one to love me, Why I always keep on missing on opportunity ......

Just because My up bring was done with all values and respect .....But what I got
there is no one with whom I can share my sorrows
No friends , No well wishers , No companion ,
I am all alone ....... .......

Everything Sucks

Its almost a month I came back to u ...........I learned a lesson that whosesoever in life is there wether a well wisher or a follower or a admier no one will ........ever appreciate you .......one has to make himself or herself understand ...........then only one can be content ......I m happy ..........I know life is full of tension .........best things is t o overcome the tension and .......try to adpt .........the changes around us ..................I dont knw when god has written marriage for me ................the way I m waiting for him ..............I m sure he must be waiting for me as well ............please send him God ...........please Bless me
I want to get married .............I want to live happily ...........I know one can never wait to be happy ............I want to be happy at this movement .

Wishlist is endless .................

These days I have stopped dreaming ............I dont dream about marriage .........I guess my thought process has jammed ...........I have encountered so many expreience in this life ...........that I dont expect to be good ........I feel that the umpteen no of fraud n cheating done by dozen of people .............It started when I was in my adulthood ...........since that  time ........I have grown with expreience .........I guess never in my life I will feel content .............I dont know ...........Why the male react in so indifferent way ........I really dont knw who will be the lucikest man on this earth who will marry me ..........
God do some thing why I cant get married ...........why every body on this earth has a life partener all my school mates are either enaged or married ............
I dont knw why I m writing .........as back of mind I will feel content and happy .........
When one of my cousin got married before that I use to thing that I will never get chance to be happy of to get married ...........then I thought if such dump girl can get married ........than I m  more smart than her .......
But all my hope are like a dry sea .............I dont have any positive sign of being happy and cheerful ..........I will not smile from now on .