2 nd August 2010

I m writing this so that I can feel better ..........If I believe in destiny then surely I must have done something very bad in my past birth , that why god is not kind to me .......I don't know how should I keep myself motivated daily ......I don't have anyone with whom I can share my thinking

My best frd proved to be a jerk .......she insulted me indirectly ......I can still recall those lines ....those awful comments which she said for me .......to her other frd .......

I do feel I should also drop the idea of Delhi guy as ........he is slim and I am not  ........its Monday today and whole day I was praying to god that he should be in my life  ........I wanted  him to be my life partner ........and what I got in return ... two lines and two words ......that he is divorcee .........lol .....you may find such ppl also in your life too



I really don't know when will I get answer to my prayers ...... I always do good to people  I always care ....

.people do have different perception

.I came a across a HR fellow of a very reputed company ......."being decent and confused mind state" is consider as hypocrite in his level of understanding ...........I was confused that why the hell I am attracted to wards him .............why I want to be more with him ..........and he commented on me that its a hypocrite attitiude .........I really don't know who is correct ...........


It  was time  of  cool breeze blow ...........there was pleasure ......I was happy being with him ......I was smiling without any reason .........I was happy in his thought .........crazy to hear his voice .........madly appreciating him on each of his deeds ........waiting for him  for no reason just to be with him ...........

in spite of the fact I know the reality .........we wont be together .....as .there is no hope to come across again and meet .........I miss him .......there was no commitment .......there was no promise there was no assurance .......but still I anticipate a call form his side .........I wish he should call me ...........I am so occupied with his thought .........when I called he didn't receive my call ........neither he replied for my sms .........I make distance with people who move away form me ..........I guess I am too good  for him .......that the best I can think for myself ...........I want to be cheerful .......I want to be happy .......I want to forget him .........I know time is healer ..........one day I will surely forget that  Him

I want to say Thank You

I am very much positive thinker and I want to thank god for giving me a great life .........and a very good family .......although some blanks are missing but I know that God will take care of it ..........As he has taken always



Thank you  God for a wonderful content life and for keeping us gud and healthy be with us always ..........and prover your presence always :)

Irony ....of being puppet

I really dont know what to title this post ......neither I know if any body read my blog or not I just write for my satisfication .........at least I share on internet with least care that its read or not



I m busy with my professional life ..........other chores of life ........as far as marriage is concern till yet no one has accepted me .........on Sunday I will meeting one guy .............we do have  height difference .......he is tall and I am average height girl .........I also know that it will be other rejection on card ........but I have to act like a puppet for my parents .........I know all the good things about my parents ..........they are my well wisher and they are really worried for my marriage ...........but I really don't know what 's in, my destiny card ...........I really don't know when I will tell to you that I am committed ........I am also sad nobody has read my blog ..........and nobody  follows..........If there are followers then the interest in writing blog is more ............being in fake world .........but still know to other .........its a different kind of passion ..........I love  writing since my teen-ages .......I am a dairy writer and now a blogger

The  irony with me is that most of the time .......through social networking sites and other community groups .....the groom side, who has rejected me with some of silly reason like profession or horoscope or looks
I usually get the update if any of prior prospect guy is getting married .......although its hurting ............it will sound strange to reader ........but through my community group even I know how many are married and taking care of family n kid .............Why I get knowledge about .them .........I never search ....but usually it pop in front  of eyes in form of a in box flash mail or pop of scrap ........Poor I ..........God is judging my patience .........and my saturation point ..........

5th Month of 2010

Its May .....5th month of the year has started .........although I am very positive about this year ......but I dont knw when I will be with  the stability of career and assurance of secured life with my better half ........

God I know that some one  somewhere is made for me ..........please send that someone in my life and make my life blissful ..........world will be filled  with colours and happiness .........

I m alone n lonely ........there is no one who can pamper me ........or no one to apperciate or love me ......I want love ........my family is good they love me tooooooo and they do care for me .....but still I cant be with them all my life ........I need my soul mate ............my partner ........my better half ......my other part of heart ....

waiting for the answers

One day I will get all the answers ........
I really wanted to knw why my life is like this ........why people ignore me .........why people come and go in my life ..........Nobody can value me ...........and I really hope one day god will surely tell me ......all the answers for all the trouble I have faced in lif e............or may be it was destined ......

I really hate those moments when friends in my life made me special ......and treated me in nice way ........and now they dont exisit .........they do exisit in reality .............but vapourised from my life........I really hate all those buggers .......from the core bottom of my heart ..........I dont knw why it happened with me .........that I emotionally started expecting things and favour from their side ........but in reality things were different ..........some of them were flirting and some of them were doing time pass........with my friendship ......

The Story is without a turning point

I m still single...........but with a hope that one day i will be  married ..........there is conditional offcourse of HAPPILY or   not

Hope in life always keeps you motivated .........you are full of positive drives and thoughts ........

Life is all about choices if you chosse to be happy you can be and If you feel  sad then you will be sad for ever .......my story in life is without a turning point although I want to be happy ...........but thing around me are so without  ends .......I dont knw  how human being can be satisfied with condition in life ..........I m a convent eductaed gurl .........studied with gurls ........I guess I am over pamaperd child in family with Indian conservative approach .........but In my life I also got many chance to interact with boys .......I   had crush on many .....I found every guy nice .....and perfect husband material :P..........but again there was no turning point and eventually some or the other way we were never remain in contact ........or my heart got crushed as they had some other love affair or attraction ...........